I am amazed. I was just reading some of my older posts from before Ronny and I were married. It was nice to reminisce over things I had totally forgotten about as well as see what mind set I was at that point. Its crazy. I feel like a completely different person. I don't think I even write the same way anymore. I have a different way of expressing myself now. Somehow more subdued. I was reading about the arguements I had with my mom regarding the wedding and things and now I just wish I could be with her! Moving away from your family and home country can really change your priorities!
Ok, I am going to just tell you guys what the whole situation is...what I have been "stressing" over. Without going into massive detail....we have decided as of right now to back to New York. The main reason being we don't feel that we are progressing spiritually out here. I feel that the last year and a half has taken its toll. We have been through so much, more than I can even get into to, just know that its been really hard and on top of getting married, we moved countries twice and although we have built our way up to where we are, we are not satisfied with the state of our spirituality. Dont get me wrong, we are not doing horribly bad but we need to be around a support system to grow more spiritually. I feel that we have matured in many other areas but have neglected the most important areas. And moving country AGAIN and to another congregation is just not going to help us. Our congregation here is wonderful and supportive but they dont know us and being as conservative as they are, its very different from what I am used to. The society makes sure that those they send out to other countries are doing really well spiritually and if we ever want to come back out to Europe, fine, it will always be there but we need to prioritize and do the right thing. Time is running out in this system. So we are planning hopefully for January but could be pushed to March. Its all depending on the immigration as we need to file for Ronny's passport. I am happy to go home but at the same time I was so looking forward to Spain. But it will always be there. I know a lot of people wont understand and that is fine, we have prayed about this a lot and talked to my parents as well as others in our congregation and we feel its the right thing to do. Things can change, nothing is ever set in stone but will let you know what happens either way. Please tell me what you think. Its actually going to be hard moving back, after thinking it through but we will have Jehovah's blessing cause we are putting him first.
On to a lighter side, we are going to an outdoor concert of The Rat Pack (the broadway show) in Kenwood Park in London with some friends. There will be loads of bethelites there as its free and I am really looking forward to it. I love Frank Sinatra and it will be great. Hope the weather holds up!
Btw, I am down 33.5 lbs!!!! Found out in my weight in tonight. =)
See you later! Love you all.