I feel truly horrible for the family of the man that was shot in Stockwell station last Friday. It has been let known that he had nothing to do with the bombings. He was from Brazil working as an electrician in this country to help his family financially back home. I told Ronny yesterday, I dont know which is worse....to lose your son and know he was guilty of killing innocent people or for your son to be killed for no reason. The police are standing by their "shoot to kill" attitude and I can understand it to a degree but at the same time they cannot be so negligent in seeking out the proper and guilty persons involved. What a sad world we live in. This morning was especially hard on the train. Its getting worse and worse. I feel true panic. I don't know how much more I will be able to take. I am probably putting in my resignation this week and will search for work near my home. I wont stop my life but I will avoid danger if I can. And taking the trains is just not safe at this point. I doubt it will get any better.