I don't know why but today I feel really lonely and bored. Weird combination but not a nice one. I have felt this way for the past two days really. I feel restless, like I want to do something but can't quite put my finger on what. I think it's probably the fact that things have slowed down and although it sounds weird I am a bit like "What do I do now?". I have no real things stressing me out which to be frank is new to me. I think I need a bit of a project.
I feel lonely though. I don't have any friends here. There are those I talk to at the meetings and I get along really well with but for someone who is normally so outgoing and quick to make friends there are none I hang out with. I don't know if a lack of confidence with the new move and all. I just really miss home sometimes. I dream about my family and friends. The other day I was cleaning the kitchen and a salsa song came on through the suffle mode on our laptop and I felt like crying, it reminded me so much of my family. I had to bite back tears. Its hard with no family, no friends and no one that is of my culture. In the whole of the UK there are only 250,000 Latinos. I miss my culture so much. The food, the music. And NY is obviously not Puerto Rico but it is its own culture. Im going to a Latin Festival on the 1st of July I am REALLY looking forward to. I will try to invite some from our congregation to go with us.
Don't get me wrong. It's not all bad. We went to a BBQ this weekend and had a lovely time. Its just a bit hard at times. I miss you guys. Please stay in touch with me.