Well, I had a long time with my mom and Ronny last night. We are considering moving the wedding to next month. I know that will be a huge change and will effect a lot of things including people attending the wedding but we have a lot of reasons why. Mainly: I have lost ALL joy for this wedding through the stress that has been piling up. I think losing the apartment was the needle on the haystack. Also, our fiances are a huge burden, if we do get married in Nov we have nowhere to live. If we get married next month we will still have his apartment till Nov 1st and can look for a place in the meanwhile (that is if his sister hasn't already moved in). We are going through SO much and I just want to be with him. I'm totally uncomfortable with the situation the way it is. Waiting for a day in November just so we can have a few extra perks to the wedding. Its so hard to find a place for him to stay and thats beyond stressful believe it or not. Last night he had to stay at a hostel and even though they arent too bad, sleeping in the same room with a bunch of worldly will have its drawbacks. Thank goodness today my aunt said he can rent out a room at her house. I'm happy about that. Anyways, back to the wedding. Ronny came to pick me up for lunch today and we were talking about it. It's not definite but it's something we are both liking the idea of. For the first time in 2 months Im starting to feel excited about my wedding again and that feels really good. I don't know what is going to happen but I'll keep you guys posted. Thats it for now. Love you all!