Wow, FINALLY! I got the new blog going. The other layout was ok but a little too messy for me. I need tables! LOL I really like this one, even if it is pink. I can't believe a former tomboy has such a fem blog!!! But I really do like it. = ) I noticed that since I've gotten older I have become more and more feminine, especially since I've met Ronny. It's cool though. I guess the majority of my life I thought being feminine was to play up to what society feels a woman should be. And frankly, it made me feel a bit vunerable. But deep down inside I WAS feminine. I just hid it really well. I have always been a romantic/idealist. Im an ENFJ if that means anything to you. So I grew up reading fairy tales and playing with dolls but as I got a little older and frankly, gained weight I became afraid to show that side of myself. I guess I just built up a tough exterior as a defense. Truth be told, I DID hate flowers on my things and going shopping (still not crazy about shopping), I even refused to go into Victoria Secrets till I was at least 21. Now, Im becoming more and more comfortable with being a woman. Its kinda nice. =) I think to a great degree I can thank Ronny. He has made me very comfortable with who I am. He always makes me feel beautiful. I still feel self conscious of course, I am still a woman but when Im with him I know that to him I AM the most beautiful woman in the world and thats all that matters to me. =)
Wedding Update: Not too much going on in that department. For some unknown reason I'm totally procrastinating in getting things done which is SO out of character for me! I'm the type who likes to get things done and out of the way but really this whole wedding thing IS overwhelming! I've never really been the girl to plan out my wedding. It's like where do I begin??? Well a few things are done. The reception hall is booked and my sister ordered little things like the table numbers and place cards which she got a great deal on. Those things can be SO expensive!!! This weekend we are going to look at invitations which can also be steep but I think it will be fun. I'm trying to not let myself get too stressed. My mom and sister are doing SO much. Good thing I'm not picky, I can just delegate a lot of stuff to them.
That's all for now...later!