Well, I'm sure you are all wondering what happened. (Thanks sooo much for the comments btw). On Monday after I wrote that post I left for home. Ronny met me (when I called him distraught he literally dropped everything and ran to my job and waited an hour for me to come out). We went to eat and talk and then went home. I didn't talk much to my mom. I didn't feel like it at the moment. Wanted to think some more and of course pray and I'm glad I did. Tuesday I stayed home from work and slept in a bit and then Ronny came over. He is staying with a friend in Brooklyn and its a long way by train. He got up at 5:30am to come and be with me first thing in the morning. He is truly amazing. My family and him all went out for breakfast which was ok. They had something to do so me and Ronny went back to my house, sat on the front steps and I poured my heart out to him. It felt so good. He is a great listener. We talked some more and then he said I should go upstairs and rest a while. He wanted to do some laundry. So about an hour later I hear the doorbell and go answer the door. I see a bunch of roses in my face when I open the door and then there is Ronny. It was a very sweet and thoughtful thing to do. Especially since they were my fave roses (the fire and ice kind). He went back out (my family wasnt home yet) and bought us lunch and then came back and we ate them on the stairs. I dont mean to bore you with details but this is what me more and more determined to do whatever I had to to be with him. He's amazing. He is ALWAYS there for me and loves me unconditionally. I told my mother that. No matter what kind of mood I am in, no matter how grouchy, no matter how fat I feel or sad, or mad, or bored, no matter WHAT he has always been there to love and support me. And to me that counts for a lot. Yes, he is imperfect and he has things to work on but we all do and I want to help him and support him the best I can, just the way he has done for me. I told him that before I love him as a mate and lover he is my best friend and apart of me. His eyes got misty and I have to say so did mine. I love him so very much.
So anyways, the day ended pretty good. My dad (who is the book study conductor) asked Ronny to say the opening prayer which made me very happy and afterwards we all went (including my sister and her 3 kids that are visiting) for ice cream. My little niece, Kaylin is 3 and totally in love with Ronny. When she sees us together she gets in between us and hugs our necks. And he loves her right back. I know things wont ever be perfect between Ronny and my family but they are all trying. I just know I need patience and strength from Jehovah and as long as I can be with Ronny I will be happy.
PS: Tonight Im heading back to the gym. Pray for me.....lol