Wow a few months shy a year and I finally post again. This is definitely the longest I have been away. Honestly, I never thought I would start up this blog again. I am not totally sure what has got me back. I think it might have to do with my new PT job. Yes another new job! But this one is super awesome. I work 2-3 days a week (depending on the week) for a marketing company consisting of me (the Sales and Marketing Assistant), the president (a 60 year old awesome, awesome lady) and a super sweet Graphics Designer. I have only worked one day (last Friday) but I truly love it so far. I am going back tomorrow and Friday and maybe Thursday. Its very cool. We had my interview in Bryant Park if that says anything! Betty (my boss) is the first boss I have had since Heidi (at Espresso in London) who treated me like a person. After my first day we spent almost two more hours chatting. She is really inspiring. A fabulous entrepeneur. I think after being in a massive, massive funk for the past year, she is inspiring me to move on. I haven't done badly. I left Kirkland (LONG story) and since then have taken the time to take care of myself. I burnt out over the last four years. My photography has picked up (I still sell prints) and I recently bought a new camera, a Canon Rebel Xti, with my tax return money. I love it and its on another planet from my little point and shoot I used to use. I am hoping to branch out into doing people now (weddings, pregnancy's, children, engagements). I need to build up my portfolio though. Anyways, Ronny was hurt on his job in April. He hurt his arm badly but thankfully no permanent damage other than sensation loss on a tiny part of his hand and he will be getting a small skin graft next week. Its been a horrible two months though. Between that, going to doctors with him and then he got sick for the Special Day and then right after he got hurt I got a BAD case of tonsilitis. Its just been crazy. Shortly after that my niece came to live with us (another long story) and I dove head first into depression. She is with her mom now so I have been able to get back on track. So I had bought this great new camera and didnt get to use it for a good month and a half. I felt kind of discouraged with everything. But since starting to work with Betty, I feel more motivated. The things I do for her I do for my own photography business (or should) with regards to marketing, etc and its making me realize that I need to get way more serious about my own business. Plus, we talk about things in general and I made a statement to her the other day. Its funny because even though I do feel this way, I have not lived this way in a long time. I feel "that the only thing that ever stops us in life is ourselves." As simple and unoriginal as that is, it was a bit of an epiphany for me. The last few days I have felt far better. I feel rejuivenated and alive again. So I have been blogging more on my art blog and decided to get this one going too. Also going to all my friends blogs (you guys) I realized how much I miss having my friends. I am quite alone still if you can believe that. I dont really have friends here. There is one sister I hang out with on occasion but other than that, nothing. I miss the person I used to be 4 years ago. I had to leave her behind not because of want but out of necessity. I am trying to gradually refind her and also find the person I have become. Its interesting that is for sure.