I wanted to thank each one of you for your kind and lovely comments. I am sorry that it has taken me a week to get back to post again and also that I did not respond to each comment individually. As you can imagine this week has been a difficult one. I have been mostly numb and in denial but today I took off to have the day to myself. I needed to just be alone. At the moment, I just want to sleep. I think I will in a little while. Take a nice nap. We have the assembly this weekend and want to be rested up for it. I have to say everyone's comments have really encouraged me. Seriously, they have really helped. I dont feel alone in dealing with it. I know your prayers have helped as well. I havent talked to Nathan but for a few minutes since the last time. The poor thing sounded worse. He was busy and I haven't been able to get a hold of him since. I know he will be okay but its natural to worry over those you love. A friend of mine sent flowers to arrive at his parents house yesterday and I sent some to arrive today. I believe another friend is sending some as well. I still need to send out a card as the little card on the flowers is not enough to express myself on. These are the ones I sent. I found the funeral flowers to be too depressing:





















I hope they like them. When I told Nathan that we were all sending flowers, he sounded shocked but in a good way. He said "That is the best thing you can do." They are not having a public funeral service for Eric which I respect. They have to do what is right for them, for them to grieve and move on. I am totally keeping tabs on Nate for the next few months. It takes a long time to get somewhat used to what has happened and in this case I am sure it will take even longer.
Anyways, on to other news (before I get too depressed) I got my hair cut yesterday. It is seriously falling out. I was warned that could happen with my diet program but I didnt think it would happen to me. Literally everyday its falling out in chunks. I knew I had split ends and it was very heavy in the back and I had not cut my hair since December so I went last night to get it done. I will post a pic up of it. Its not fancy or anything but I think it looks healthier and I hope it helps to stop my hair from coming out. The good thing is that it will grow back, the thickness that is. I am worried but not panicking as I have always had loads of hair. Enough to spare.
So like I said this weekend is our assembly. I am really looking forward to it. I am sorry to say that since getting the news about Eric, I have not been to one meeting (so I missed 2) and I know that is the worse thing to do but I have always been like that and I need to learn that its exactly during situations like this that I need to be at the meetings. I will get there. I hope this assembly rejuevenates us like the convention did. Our friends have called us and asked if they could take us out for dinner after the assembly on Sunday as its our anniversary on the 19th and they are going to Cuba and we are going to Italy so we wont have any time to celebrate together. I am looking forward to it. Its weird cause we went out for dinner with them last year as well and suddenly the next one is upon us! LOL Crazy stuff.
I will take pics at the assembly and post some up for you guys. Love you all SO much. You really do mean so much to me and touch my heart in a way I cant express. May Jehovah to continue protecting and blessing you and your families.